John 12: 1-7, 31-35
Having been in many a dark place from time to time in my life, I find these words from Jesus to his disciples “Soon the light will be gone / no one can see where they are going in the dark” quite daunting. I feel for these men who do not yet know what Jesus’ death will mean. They have not yet experienced His return and what accepting that can mean. They are going to feel abandoned, forgotten and unloved. Gratefully, I live post resurrection; so, in my dark and trying times, I can search for and seek the light; be open to any spark of hope that God will provide me with some shining light to follow. Yet, in this piece of scripture, Jesus, the light, will be gone soon- the disciples will be left in darkness. There will be no hope, no redemption. He is warning them of his death and of their loss.
And so, what can I make of this? The only thing I can, that Jesus died, the light did go out, then the light returned with Jesus’ resurrection. And, that light is still available if we chose to receive it. It’s the light of guidance, hope and renewal. It’s the light that waits for all of us when we are feeling burdened, lost, forgotten, unloved. It starts slowly at the edges of consciousness and as it grows, warms and softens our hearts. The light of Jesus had to go away so that the disciples and future generations could appreciate His return just like sometimes in our lives we have to lose sight of the goodness of life so that when it is eventually renewed, we are able to recognize the treasure that has been restored to us. Night and darkness are not necessarily bad- they are a waiting time, a reflection time leading us all back to the morning when the eastern light will shine and we will feel its warmth on us again.